My Film’s Trailer is Out!

My film is all about flipping over the “traditional” view on gays.

(roll down to watch trailer if you don’t want to see my babbling)

One day, the co-director of this film, Paul, came and asked if I was interested in doing the Kinsey scale test, which measures how “gay” or “straight” I was. Naturally, both of us got “equally homosexual and heterosexual”—which basically says we are bisexual.

This test could be inaccurate, of course, but while my friends did the test, I noticed that more than half of them denied they were attracted to their own sex and were somewhat repulsed by the idea.

I can imagine. My own parents never ever talked to me about sexual orientation and stuff. Once my mom and I went shopping, and my mom commented on a celebrity who didn’t look manly, saying that he looked like a gay. I argued with her, not because I liked the celebrity, but because my mom was holding some serious stereotypes of gays.

Plus, I didn’t like the way she said the word “gay”; as if it was an embarrassing topic or something.

I don’t like homophobia. I don’t like traditional values (my mom isn’t traditional but hey, everyone has an opinion).

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Trailer is Out!

After a long time of dormant doing-nothing, I finally made the trailer to my short film “I Killed My Beloved.”

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Today I want to share with you a terrible news:

A national committee in China just identified homosexuality as one of the un-normal sexual acts.

What can I say? I am a supporter for LGBTQ in my community. I have seen people suffer in my school because of who they are. But I have seen more and more people rising up to proudly say that they are LGBTQ. I have seen a more democratic China. I am even hoping that in the near future, China would make same-sex marriage legitimate.

But that dream seemed to be crushed when hundreds of online articles reported the sad news. And this isn’t the worst part. The worst is that, when these articles stood up for LGBTQ and condemned the statement, they are wiped off the internet.

The ironic part is, when we tried to speak up for freedom, our own “freedom-seeking” leaders suppressed us so that we could not be heard. Why? Because apparently, this committee don’t want anyone in the society to think that homosexuality is a normal.

No religious beliefs are involved in this. What is this kind of society, then? Oh, I think I just remember something that happened seventy years ago!


No offense, but whoever that said the second sentence in this blog page is probably ancient.

A few decades ago, China officially decriminalized homosexuality and removed it from the list of “mental illness”. And now an unofficial committee wants to do WHAT?

From a logical point of view, there’s a fallacy called the naturalistic fallacy, which states that “what is natural is right“. But psychologists say that humans can disobey this “natural”; we can disobey what our genes designed us to do.

If some people call heterosexuality as natural and so it is right, they are actually making a naturalistic fallacy. And as we humans can disobey what is “natural”, we can disobey the “rule” that we must be heterosexual, which means we can be homosexual.

We are all humans, aren’t we?

Progress: Almost Done

Today my team has successfully shot one of the most important scenes in my short film.


This scene is a dialogue between the two main characters. The man goes to find the woman in a piano room, telling her that she must go meet the other character. At this point, the man reveals that he likes the woman.

Then, in the other scene, after the woman comes back to find the man, she agrees to date with him.

I set this second scene outside the piano rooms, in an open ground where elementary school students have their recess every afternoon. This is, in fact, the only difficulty I’ve encountered in shooting this very short scene, because I didn’t expect so many kids running about! More importantly, I didn’t want kids circling around the actors (one of whom is actually me😂) while the cameraman shot the scene. That would be very awkward.

Fortunately, the kids soon wandered off, and we had a moment of peace—during which the scene was shot—before we met people we knew.

Update on the progress: there’re only 3 scenes left.

Support From a Friend

Today when I went to find my cameraman, he was talking with a girl from our grade. (I’ll call her K.) So K is a lesbian/bisexual and has a girlfriend. When she asked what kind of short film we were filming, I told her it is about LGBTQ, upon which K’s eyes lit up. She was very enthusiastic and asked me if she could be one of the first to watch the film when it’s done. I was so glad that she supported us.

Finding Music

Last weekend I researched online about music copyright and commissioning an artist to do the music. The issue with copyright is a bit different in China—one uses whatever song he or she finds without citing it and is not aware of copyrights.

I’m not comfortable with using someone else’s music without crediting him or her, but I also don’t know if using a famous song and crediting its artist for my short film is okay. The search engines aren’t giving lots of answers.

I guess the best way to be legal (and original) is to commission a composer. I happen to know someone who composes music. I should pay him because he’s not giving his service for free! Now the problem is, I don’t know how much I should pay him… (he’s my friend; he’s a student; he’s in Europe)

Bad Weather for Months😢

Bad Weather for Months😢

I’m half way through the shooting process. My initial plan was to finish videoing by the end of March but it now seems impossible…The monsoon is here and everything is wet and humid and UGHHH! I want some of the scenes to be shot during sunny days, but the rain is not going to stop until May.

(the featured photo is of a kapok tree I took when I was wandering around)

Just Getting Started: My Short Film

Just Getting Started: My Short Film

I woke up one day with an idea on my mind–making a short film about homosexuality in teenagers.

In my school community, people don’t usually make fun of gays and lesbians in the open, but a lot of them don’t like homosexuality either. Some students are mocked because of their “unusual” sexual orientations. Homosexuals are suppressed due to family and social perspectives.

My main goal is to help the majority of people in my community realize that there’s nothing wrong with homosexuality (sorry but no transgender because I didn’t find a transgender in my school–I’m a realist).

So I went to some of my good friends and asked them to join. We had just enough people to start. I’m both the director and an actress. Honestly, I think acting and directing at once isn’t a sensible choice, but the people I asked to act for this character didn’t like to get in front of the camera, so I had to take the role myself.

After a month, I finally thought up the name for the film: “I Killed My Beloved”. There’s a special reason for this and you’ll know when the film comes out (though probably not for a few months😂).